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•••Anxiety around training••• I’ve been training since I was 21. Yet still, every now and then I get mad anxiety about going into the gym.
It’s been on and off a lot lately (although last week I couldn’t train due to some sort of neck injury)
Recently it’s gotten to me so badly I need a personal trainer with me just to train me.
Today it was so bad I wasn’t even going to go. So I went for a walk, and decided to give it a go.
I didn’t have my belt or my straps but I was like fuck imma still go for it.
I managed to get two reps before going into fuckmode, but I didn’t want to give up so I decided to try facing the wall so I couldn’t see into the gym.
I turned around, faced the wall, calmed down and gave it another shot.
I got out another two.
Obviously this wasn’t my strength goal, but if I focused this morning on not hitting that, I would have beat the shit out of myself for being a weak price of shit and would have felt so much worse. If I didn’t go in, I would have felt worse.
When you’re in a state like this you have to change your focus, today my focus could not be physical strength, it had to be mental strength
This morning I went in when I wasn’t going to go, this morning I did some reps, this morning I accepted I didn’t have my belt and straps and still picked up a weight i usually use them for. This morning I found a way around my internal melt down, this morning I did my best while feeling caught in a head fuck. And that’s something to be proud of.
I wanted to share this, especially if you’re new to the gym, it’s ok to feel this way even ten years in.
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