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🗣 Let’s talk Beauty 🗣
Before any of you get the wrong idea, I have never been an ugly person and Know this. This is not to say that I’m “cocky” because I’m definitely far from that. However, I can definitely say that the person on the left was not me. When I say not me, I mean not me as a whole. The person on the left was extremely sick. She found absolutely no value in herself, she found no need to keep her health in order, and when she did think about getting her health in order, she would procrastinate and make tons of excuses on why She had absolutely no time to better her health. That person on the left would sit at home and literally eat two huge bags of “sweet and spicy“ Doritos, 1 double double from In & Out, a steak Chipotle bowel for my Doritos & 2 Mango Snapple’s and STILL be questioning what was for dinner (no lie)! I ate like that quite frequently. I just didn’t care. I even had the audacity to talk to people about their weight but had no control over my own 🤦🏾♀️. I’d lost complete hope in myself. I got tired of being TIRED. Sick of having no energy or motivation to just get it done! I’d fight myself on just getting up and moving! I’d cry all the time because I was sick of myself sick of being me because I knew better. I knew that wasn’t me! Being in that physical and mental space was a living HELL
But today, I stand before the world a different person who has not only physically changed herself but also mentally. I didn’t love myself less because I was over weight, but because I knew I was better than that. Better than her! Better then those bad habits. I feel so free now! Free to be me again, free from body pains and aches. Free from that physical prison. I’m still working on the mental, but I’m much happier. Imagine how you might feel if you just got up and put YOU first. I still battle with my food addiction but I’m taking it one day at a time.