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To this very day,
It’s been a year
And yet, I feel like you’re still here.
Sometimes, I think back to those last days.
So I can tell you everything I wanted to say.
To change how everything happened,
To be a better son
But I can’t
We were all helpless,
We didn’t know what to do.
We all were selfless,
Just for you
The one person who kept everyone together,
And after you passed,
I don’t want to drift away anymore
It’s like you’ve got me to a tether,
At long last,
But this rift grows forever more.
I don’t think we could ever truly connect
But when we did,
Those were the happier moments of my life.
And I wish I could’ve told you that.
But instead, I was too dreaded to say anything
Everyday that I see your photo,
I feel it pierce through my soul.
But I don’t feel your presence,
All I feel is your absence
And when I look to the Moon.
I don’t know what or how to feel.
Should I be sorrowful, that you’re gone?
Or should I be happy that you’re in a better place?
Should I be looking for you?
Or should I be letting you be, in peace?
You gave the world to us,
I don’t know how many more tears I’ll shed.
I don’t know how many days I’ll dread.
I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to get out of bed
And the images still plague my mind,
They are always detailed,
Almost never vague, or easily left behind.
I guess, it’s a truth unveiled,
You were always here,
And now, I live a life without you.
It’s been difficult, heart wrenching at times.
But, I promised you I would get through it
We all promised you that we could,
And that we would
So I can’t, and I won’t, break mine
I miss you Mom,
I’m sorry that you won’t ever be able to read this,
But hopefully you’ll hear me.
And feel reassured
Don’t feel sad for me, or any of us, please.
Let your own sorrows be at ease.
I just want you to be at peace.
You deserve that much, at the very least
I love you, from down on Earth,
To the Heaven’s of which you rest in
Thank you Mom, for everything.
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