59 minutes ago
We talk a lot about mothers instinct, but I think baby instinct can be just as strong.
Sunday afternoon was not a good one for me. Josh was in a challenging mood, Holly was in permanent whinging mode and I couldn’t do anything to cheer either of them up. Every attempt at food was literally flung at my feet, Josh was becoming increasingly aggressive towards me and after weeks of solo parenting and chasing my tail I snapped.
I just about restrained myself from being a shouty mum, although I could feel my patience disappear like quicksand! Instead I went and hid, first in the down stairs toilet, before retreating to my kitchen floor.
And there I sat and cried. I cried with exhaustion, frustration and feeling like a failure cause I wasn’t able to meet these little people’s needs because everything I tried was met with a battle!
Then this little girl toddles into the kitchen, climbs on to my lap and wraps her chubby arms around me. Somehow she just knows. It doesn’t matter that she’s only 17 months old, she knows mummy needs a cuddle.
And it was one of the best cuddles I’ve ever had. Because It brought me back to the moment, out of the weeping fog and realising how amazing the bond is between us mummy’s and our babies!