9 minutes ago
Drowning myself in the noise
Lately I have had to let go of a lot and fall into reality. I have listened to my loved ones, friends, and complete strangers express their life. Some are sad, angry, and or lonely. Or to many emotions to really know what to do with. Some are happy.
I am the “to many emotions to know what to do with” person. I’ve gone through more than I should have in my life time and I try my best to not have the the victim mentality and to think positive about my experiences.
I drown myself in the noise of my own words. Words that I’ve chosen to believe. From others, to simply me creating a lie about myself in my head. I am an obsessive thinker. It’s hard to realize that I may be hurting, in ways that are to painful to love.
We allow no compassion or love for ourselves sometimes. We automatically believe that we are the issue and create a dark fantasy that leads to destruction. But it’s all just in our heads. Why do we tournament ourselves? I do love myself tho sometimes it’s hard to do so when you feel defeated. I try my best to love others around me with a kind heart and a gentle spirit. I have noticed lately that I do not love myself the way I try to love others. This is going to change. I want a life that is good and happy with the ones I love and if I do not recognize now that I am good.
Than, I am just a sinking ship of thoughts and I am drowning my loved ones along with me. No one can change my way of thinking. Only me, myself, & I. So, I will go and find my new adventure that will give me a breath of fresh air and includes a sentence of “I am good, loving, kind, and happy.” For you who feels, know that you can allow yourself to breath. Fresh air that will help you to stop your panic. A fresh thought, a new adventure.
let go, inhale fresh air, and find a new adventure. Cause life is calling you out to see, all that you are meant to be. Find you’re skeleton key.
Love yourself. Be kind to yourself.