21 hours ago
You won’t be ready tomorrow, either🦋
It’s been a tough few years, damn.
I’m finally crediting myself for the steps I’ve taken to get myself to this position. It’s cliché, but the small steps we take every day really do lead to brighter days.
In September 2015 I was diagnosed with Depression, I was told it was a result of being a teenager. But I became a shadow of my former self. 90% of my time was spent in bed, in tears or in crisis. I lived under a constant dark cloud, I pushed away my friends and lost myself in the process.
Today, I’m feeling something different. A feeling I’ve lacked for years, and one that I’ve longed to have. I’m feeling hopeful. The suicidal thoughts are reducing, and I cannot comprehend just how freeing it is. It’s terrifying to admit, feeling anything other than sad and hopeless often leads to increased guilt, and I wonder how long the feeling will last. My mindset is currently unpredictable, but the glimmer of hope feels like true magic. I am healing. I am slowly, but surely, beating my Depression.
I’m feeling full of gratitude as I’m surrounded with the most incredible people. I’m meeting my new Therapist next week and I’m determined to put my words into actions, to make significant changes and steps forward in my recovery✨
I’ve realised that I’m not alone. Life is scary, but it’s also wonderful. And coming to this realisation has been very, very overwhelming, but exciting too!
I’m surrounded with love and I have so many reasons to keep going. The darkest moments in my mind will always come back to haunt me, but I’m moving forward and replacing the triggers for happier days, and light, and bigger motivations. I’m going to keep going, taking small and crucial steps every day
At the times Depression convinced me I was weak or that I shouldn’t be here, I fought back and refused to be defeated. I persisted, I continued to live. And I’ll continue climbing the mountain
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