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How often do you spend time alone? Are you okay spending time alone? Do you crave connection? Do you have a fear of being alone?
I have a fear of being alone. And not necessarily in just a romantic sense. I have never been “the popular girl”, I’ve never had a huge group of friends, and honestly I’ve never felt like I’ve fit in with any group. -
As a bartender, I tend to work nights. So when I have a night off, I kind of get thrown off. What do I do? Who do I hang out with? I have a couple of friends, but none of our schedules ever seem to line up. It’s the nights that I have off that I crave connection the most.
Learning to sit with the feelings of being alone, and finding ways to get myself back to a place of gratitude and peace has not been easy. I get anxious, and upset. I cry, I yell, I get frustrated. But sometimes those moments of solitude allow me to see what i truly want, allow me to have clarity, and get back to myself.
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