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When I was thirteen years old, I vividly remember overhearing a conversation between my Dad, and my Grandmother. “I just don’t get it. Why can’t she just be a lesbian? She’s the only granddaughter we have!” “Your granddaughter is your grandson. It’s the same person. He cut his hair and changed his name. You can either accept him for who he is, or you can attend your granddaughters funeral. That’s where we’re at, I see it.” I remember the chills that were sent through my body that night. The anger, the relief, the stress, the happiness, and the confusion of all of it.
My Dad fought hard for me. Our relationship was incredibly strong, which is why his passing hurt me so deeply. My relationship with my grandparents was a bit strange for the next few years. They still dead named me, and I wasn’t able to be open with them about my transition. It’s nothing compared to trans people who fear for their safety, but I didn’t feel seen, or heard, or understood.
Then, one day, my grandparents gave me a Christmas card that said “To: Adam,” On another day, I told them about hormone replacement therapy, and how testosterone was going to be affecting my body. They listened.
Another day, I showed them my chest binder. I explained how I became uncomfortable with my chest when I was a pre-, and how I’d been hiding it ever since. They winced at the pain I was in from bruised ribs and crushed back muscles. They hugged me gently.
Another day, I told them that I was going to see a surgeon in Montreal to have my chest removed. Their eyes widened, but they trusted me.
Yesterday, I told them that after years of paperwork, medical setbacks, self advocation years of back and forth and a constant feeling of discomfort, I’d finally received my official surgery date.
You wanna know how things really do get BETTER?
Not only are they genuinely HAPPY for me, they’re letting me stay with them post-surgery! While I’m initially healing, they’re going to make sure I eat and sleep well, and help me get moving normally again. How fricken cool is that!? What a turn around, man. I am filled with love. What a time to be alive.♥️♥️♥️
OH YEAH PS: nobody’s guessed my date yet😏