3 minutes ago
Jolted out of deep sleep this morning, I checked the time, it was 4.30am. Try as I may, sleep eluded me and the same voice whispered again and again to get up and MEDITATE! I gave in, I came downstairs to my temple and I tried to meditate.
This went on for some time and I simply couldn't concentrate the way I wanted to, despite my usual strategies and techniques. So I decided to call it a day, or a morning :) So, I took some hot water in a mug and went out to the back garden to watch the sun rise, it was now 5.30am. I sat for a while, pondered over the fluffy clouds in the blue sky and how loud teeny birds actually sing when everything else is still and sleeping:) Then, again like a a jolt, it hit me - what you might ask? Well, a message from God and the reason He/She wanted to wake me up. It's okay if you think I'm crazy, I like this crazy more than anything else in my life. But I'm sharing what was said and what I 'heard' in the depths of my soul. 'I love you, as you love me'.
'I miss you, as you miss me'.
'I yearn for you, as you yearn for me'.
I seek you, as you seek me'.
I want to be with you, as you want to be with me'. This took me by surprise and it dawned on me why I needed to wake up so early today, so I wouldn't miss this morning jewel. I realised I didn't have to wonder anymore, nor feel broken hearted that my love wasn't reciprocated. It always was, always is and always will be, but human nature doubts and questions doesn't it?
Then I asked myself, why should I worry about courage, strength, bravery, fearlessness? They were all there for me too. I was held, by a lover who asks nothing in return, who gives unconditionally and judges me not. All I needed to do was find my stillness, again and again, in meditation yes, but also in daily life, and the love was there patiently waiting.
I had to share this with my Chi Kri Chair Yoga class this morning, and so I did. Also, I feel I want to share it with you too. Not because of any ego or blaspheme on my part, but because I believe we all actually want to hear and feel God's love too, in all manner of ways.
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