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Right now, my heart aches.
Aches for reasons more than one, reasons I find hard to sew into words and string into sentences with a meaning. For all that I feel right now, at my most vulnerable, is inexplicable pain. A pain that clenches around my heart, and confuses my head, as I feel every bit of myself bleeding out.
And yet, I try to not let my head droop, for the one thing I've learnt through everything I've ever experienced is, 'This too shall pass.' These words that I tell myself everytime I feel like I'll drown, is what keeps me afloat as I type these words, all the while being neck deep in sorrow.
I neither wish to deny the existence of the pain nor wish to pretend that it does not consume me, at present, but hear me out, I have a reason.
People tell me, to heal, it's important to let go of the pain, but no one ever taught me exactly HOW does one just LET go of it, until I looked within and came to a conclusion of my own.
To heal, it's important to let go of the pain, and to let go of the pain, it's important to acknowledge the presence of pain. Acknowledge the presence of pain and embrace it, because how can you let go of something you haven't even held, and held close, at that? How can you release that which you pretend does not exist? How can you release something you've locked away inside a deep crevasse in that broken and beaten heart of yours, and denied its existence?
And most importantly, how can you let it flow out of your heart and soul until you've actually let it wash over you, in waves that could be gentle or even tidal.
So allow yourself to feel the pain that you struggle with, it's okay to not be okay, and even if it hurts you right now, it won't hurt you forever.
Allow yourself to heal, but first, be honest with your heart and allow yourself to feel.
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